Give me my roses....

OK, so I am STILL in school for my EMT license & today was a rough one. I have always thought myself to be a pretty strong woman. Able to handle just about anything. I mean I have spent hours looking at the most gory crime scenes, the bloodiest accidents, all to prepare myself to be so close to death that I might just feel their soul leave their body. However, NOTHING and I do mean NOTHING could have prepared me for today.... I witnessed someone alive, but only by the grace of God & the medicne of modern technology.  Just  being so close to someone on their way to the other side, generally makes you reflect on your own life & how you could make the most of everyday. It makes you want to experience more things, conquer some fears, step outside of your everyday routine. And don't know if you have ever heard this, but after my clinicals today I see more clearly than ever the meaning of "Give me my roses while I'm still here."

Hello 2013

I  am happy to say that I made it to 2013!! In one piece, with my peace, sanity, my loves, my health & my faith stronger than ever. In the last year I learned A LOT. I have learned to be patient, to actually live & do it with a little less fear! This year I brought in the new year with my family & as the clock struck 12, I was holding my daughter as I kissed the love of my life! And to be honest, when our lips touched, I felt something in my body jolt..... I was wonderful & scary all at the same time & to me it confirmed that he is the love of my life.... OK enough sappy stuff!! On to my resolution. Yes, only 1! And it is: be a better me all the way around.
I mean it includes everything that I think will make me a better Me than I was in 2012. So yes, that means better nutrition, getting in shape but on a more realistic scale! It also means saying what needs to be said & doing what needs to be done. See, I'm one of those people who gives a dam about other peoples feelings & I once bit my tongue. A LOT! I vow to do what Iyanla Vanzant calls "Calling a thing a thing" I have decided that life is better lived not holding thing on your chest & in your heart. It takes up space & time that could be used for love & compassion for the people who deserve it. So there it is. I hope you all brought in the new year safely & best wishes for all of 2013.